“I am no longer willing to lose myself…

…for the sake of any relationship.

I will no longer abandon any part of myself …

…to gain love, belonging or acceptance from anyone, no matter who it is or what I *could* lose.

I am releasing…

…more layers of self-suppression, self-abandonment, and codependent tendencies…

I am trusting…

…that everything will unfold for my highest good when I act in alignment with my integrity,

and practice loving kindness towards myself and others.”

Tuesday night, I got together with a close friend to set intentions beneath the new moon, on the turn of the Chinese new year. For those that follow this kind of thing, we are in a very big energy portal right now, and for some people, it’s shaking a lot of things up! The writing above is a glimpse from my own personal journalling session that night…

These past few months have really tested my boundaries. As I keep deepening my relationship with my authentic self, I’ve noticed more and more the ways that I’ve self-abandoned, and I’m almost in dismay as I realize that I am not as “far along” as I thought I was. (I’m also practicing self-compassion, don’t fret!)

Sometimes, I’m cruising along through life feeling boundaried up, empowered and SO proud of myself. Other times I get a major reality check that there is MUCH more work to be done.

I’m in a phase of this awareness right now and it’s shaking me up, that’s for sure.

My commitment to stop self-abandoning is reaching new levels, which is … hard … and also feels so f*cking worth it. Nothing can stop me from advocating for myself with clearer boundaries, more self-awareness, and a deeper devotion to living and leading from integrity.

I feel like it is important to share pieces of my journey like this so that my clients, and followers know that I am really doing the work, too. I pride myself on practicing what I preach and want that to be known, so you can trust that I GET IT. My experience is not your experience, we are all unique. But sometimes it’s good to know who is really doing “the work” themselves, isn’t it?